dilemma

i may be late with my greetings but happy new year!!!

i had a supposedly new year pressie the first day i came back to work... i know someone from a PR firm who handles an airline and rang me to tell me that she's inviting me to visit the queen (not really, the trip's main agenda are to watch footy and visit the emirates stadium) for free. yeh, i know that there's no more free lunches these days but i still agreed. i have talked to the PR person what kind of coverage i can give their client... anyway, the trip is still on the works so everything is not definite (travel dates are from 27 jan to 2 feb). i asked my boss if i can go... we talked about it yesterday and allowed me to join the trip (with a few strings attached, of course!). i was fr*gg*n surprised today when the boss's hubby (who is also part of the company, which makes him my boss, too *smirks*) and explained again what that trip meant...of course, i know the consequences...penguin sr (the boss's hubby...) asked me that if ever they ask for more advertising space in our magazine, i have to shoulder the amount which is just fair, so i agreed. what i just dont like is that they're making a biggie out of everything!!! they repeatedly lecture me and cite the boss's past experience which i have heard yesterday.... it's as if im plain dumb and st*pid!!!

i dont like the vibes im getting... i know im not supposed to let anything dampen my excited spirits but they're getting to me now... the trip is not even that 100% confirmed yet everything is starting to look ugly... i know that this is a great opportunity not just to travel but to meet other magazine personalities as well but i'm having second thoughts now... i would like to go, really...but there's no more excitement...

what do i do??? do i give in to the b*tchy vibes i have around or just turn deaf and numb to them???heeeelllllppppppppp!!!!